natural.evolution–

ago I wrote this

my world was shattered and a tiny part of it still is. But I thank God for him protecting and blessing my family these last two years. I miss my sister beyond words and there are moments today when I pick up the phone to call and tell her something and remember that she’s not going to answer. I think the hardest time has been major events, like when someone gets married its painful to me because I know that she knew me and she would be the one that did exactly what I wanted how I wanted because she simply just knew. Life is continuing though, my oldest nephew is preparing for high school, my niece is getting ready for junior high and my little munchkin is about to hit first grade. I think my brother in law is dating but he won’t say (well I know he is and she’s cool and you KNOW kids always slip lol). But we are trying to remember her and keep her in our hearts (I have no option I can never forget my best friend).

It’s funny that I ran into one of her good friends two weeks ago. She was telling me… you have no idea how much your sister loved you. She used to worry about you more then your mother. When you went to college she was a nervous wreck she kept saying “I hope she’s safe cause I know how I was.” When you pledged she was ready to come kick some ass if something happened to you, when you graduated she was so proud, when you went to grad school everyone in the office knew how smart you were. You were like her oldest child for such a long time then one day she realized hey she finally grew up and she was so proud that you were an adult and that you were her sister…

and I am so proud that she was my sister too