natural.evolution–

Discovering God’s unique plan for our lives is both humbling and inspiring: humbling because though we are but a drop in the ocean, the Creator of the universe has a plan for our individual lives; and inspiring as that plan becomes revealed and our unique talents and attributes get put to work in carrying it out.

The past week has been busy. I kind of had an epiphany one night that I really needed to stop being so complacent and decide if I was going to really live the life that I want and desire to have. So in the past week I’ve made some major changes. I asked God for assistance and direction in what I need to do. In a span of a week school is paid for, the director of the program I want to do called me yesterday saying she got my info and is excited to have me…. I consolidated some things so that I was able to pay off every credit card which is a miracle in its self… I’ve gotten back into activities I love like community service and sorority/n p h c stuff… and I’m back to running and really trying to get my body how I want it to be.

God is really revealing things to me and showing me changes I need to make and he’s taking away some distractions that I didn’t really realize were effecting my life as much as they do. I’ve had some obstacles and people that have tried to distract me but I’m standing my ground. I’m knocking goals off my list and making strides so that I can be the best Christen and Christian possible.

You have such a pure heart. That made me feel like wow. When this guy said this to me the other day in the midst of our conversation that made me feel so great. I think that is one of the best compliments I have ever received. It also made me think. Like wow what am I doing or how am I walking on my path that he saw that in me. So I asked. He pretty much told me that everything I do I seem to try and do it in good intention and that my generosity is crazy (he’s seen me help certain people out in a crunch whether it be with money, time or advice). He also said something that I REALLY didn’t know that he knew lol. He was like it’s a lot of temptation out here and you are trying to stay on path and wait it out which can be tough (No it is hard as heck ESPECIALLY when you’ve done “it” before lol). I totally appreciated what he said and took it to heart. He helped me out just with a minor statement. It’s really the little things.

Ahhh… It’s spa week in DC and I went to this new spot in maryland to partake in some of their services. When I go to a spa although I do love to get pampered and have frou frou amenities I lean more towards a spa that I can go to and feel like I’m at peace, a place with warmth and makes you feel comfprtable. So anyway I went to get two treatments monday and can I just say WONDERFUL. I started with acupuncture. This lady was so fabulous. I didn’t feel the needles at all except for one that was in a trigger area where I am having some pain and I felt it when I turned my head and forgot I had a needle in my ear lol. The only word I can use to describe the experience was freeing. Like I was really in there in another state of mind just talking to God when she left me in the room. I just felt so calm and relaxed and at ease. Totally free. Then when she was done I went into their foot lounge and had the best foot treatment ever. The guy was amazing. he served me tea and gave me a neck wrap and an eye cover and I just relaxed. I haven’t had the chance to just put my mind at ease in weeks. Work is stressing me and in there it disappeared. I’m usually all edgy and looking around and trying to figure out what someone is doing to me. But I don’t know why I trusted this dude. In a room. Alone. Him all on my feet and legs lol. But I did and I was so relaxed. I think I almost drooled lol.

this picture is so beautiful to me. It was taken by a friend of mine at an event his job hosts. We ought to be able to come to God with a pure heart and innocent like a child. With all the things around her that could be distracting her she’s giving her attention to God.

Sometimes we need a child to lead by example.

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You put the stars in the sky and you know them by name.
You are amazing God!
All powerful, unchangeable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees and we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God!
Incomparable, unchangeable,  
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God!

These are the lyrics to the chorus of a song by Chris Tomlin that I love. When you just sit and think about the things mentioned in this song all you can really say is wow that’s amazing. For someone to see the depths of my heart and know all the wrongs that I have done, all the bad things that I have thought, all the terrible places that I have been. And in spite of it all STILL love me. That is indescribable. I think about how I’ve written a lot of the years in my blogs and have been often afraid to write my true feelings about my walk and my journey with God. I’d say to my self, I’m not ashamed, I just don’t think everyone wants to read about it. But then when I start to think of the indescribable things that God has done for me why can’t I sit here and profess all the things he’s done for me. This new blog is called natural evolution because I feel like all things in life naturally evolve. Including myself. I am not in the same place or even the same person I was 3 years ago when I started blogging. I’ve evolved. I’ve gone through highs and lows and happy and sad times. I’ve been abundantly blessed and disappointed and hurt all at the same time. But one thing that always remained the same was God’s indescribable love for me. When I felt there was no where to go. He’s been my refuge, when I was confused he gave me comfort, when I prayed for clarity and for him to place people in my life he has done so and I am just excited and happy about it. I’m making moves to try to find my "sweetspot" in life (check out Max Lucado’s Cure for the Common Life to know what I’m talking about) and am ever evolving. But the evolution would not be happening if it weren’t for the indescribable things going on all around me.